boys in cars

things on my ming-mong mind:
-why am i here, sitting in a chair, learning about how to write a resume? i want to be LIVING. i want to be traveling and reading and writing and exploring and growing. i don't feel academically stimulated. i feel like i am at this college for its social life. and frisbee.
-i am so happy with my friends, yet i am so unhappy with my boy. conrad won't be honest and open with me. tonight we will talk again, and i hope it goes better than last night, but i need him to let me see him. i need to know that our friendship is salvagable...that our "aftermath" of breaking up isn't messy. that we didn't get to know and love each other for 9 months so that we could never talk again on friendly terms.
-college is a perpetual cycle of being sick. when will it end?
-i want a puppy. a boxer puppy. and of course, conrad got one recently. i miss my friend alex's dog, petey. he's up there.